Today, I turn 45. I am not where I want to be in many ways. So many things have taken my attention away from my true passion, and I am trying to change that. I decided not to pursue my PhD, so this summer I will be completing my MS in ID if I can survive the next few weeks.
I often think if my story was told, it should be marketed as fiction. No one would believe this happens.
Here is a quick recap of last week.
My AC went out. It is rather hot in June in Mobile, AL. It took 3 days to fix.
The weed eater died. You can use a hatchet to edge your yard though.
I took my comps for this degree. I met with my study group almost daily the last week.
Assignments completed for two classes I am taking.
Day at the hospital for internship I am completing.
The third anniversary of my husband’s death.
My youngest son’s best friend (and our dear friends) moved from across the street.
Two therapy sessions.
And the regular…haircuts, day camps, flag football practice and game (I am the team mom), flag football practice, school registration, and music lessons.
No one should ever have a week like this…definitely not while grieving the loss of your best friend, but so many people do. You keep checking off the list all while you are grieving. That deep pain grabs hold of you when you least expect it. I am so fortunate to have a support network of others who are grieving. They are just a text away.
I am looking forward to August. A new journey begins in August.
Today, I have a lot of work to do, and my boys are playing upstairs. I wish I was playing with them. They know my number 1 job is being their mom. So, today in some respects I am where I want to be…with them. Just missing some pieces of our puzzle, trying to conquer the roadblocks in our path, and appreciating today simply for today.